It's not the beginning of a joke...it's just my life right now. One of my best friends, Kat is moving to Missouri on Monday. So for the past week I and our friend Stormi has been staying with her helping her pack, get ready for the move and just spending as much time as we can with her. It hasn't hit me yet and when it does I'm going to lose all ability to function for at least a week. Other things that haven't hit me yet, Ginna has decided I am not worth her time anymore and New Orleans boy has not changed...one bit. He decided to pop up out of the blue after at least a year and after a few weeks, and making plans to come see me, he has dropped off the map. As far as Ginna goes...I honestly don't know what happened. She started acting distant and weird and, now I can't get her to talk to me if my life depended on it. When that one hits me I'm either going to destroy something or fall apart all over again. But back to Kat, it still feels surreal I think. I look around the house and all of the furniture is gone, I helped her move 2 loads of boxes into storage yesterday and she's leaving in a matter of days. Considering all the walls I have built up, it will hit me on Monday when I drive home after watching her leave. After that blow I'm sure the blows from Ginna and New Orleans Boy will hit shortly after...might just be useless for a few weeks. This year has sucked thus far. At least I can look back on the fact that this weekend, while shadowed by a dark cloud, has been filled with spontaneous bouts of laughter, lots of veg out girl time and continuing smiles...
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Side note: my Lana Del Rey obsession has grown, still love the rest of my music of course, but, suddenly the lyrics and feel from her songs are hitting me so strong. Unfortunately music highly influences me, so now all I want to do is ride around in a convertible, with a head scarf and my red lipstick on and smoke. I also feel the strong need to get a stiletto manicure, but she's helping me cope through all of this so I won't complain.
Angels forever, forever angels.
I'm gonna miss her, but at least she knows I'll drive to Missouri to kick her ass if she doesn't keep in touch.
