Here is my submission:
The 5FDP song that fits me the most is Ashes. Any relationship I build, be it romantic or a friendship dissolves or is damaged beyond repair in front of me. So many things I've had or wanted in life have been simply ripped away, usually from my own doing. When I look back that's how it seems, like I just leave a trail of ashes. Anything I touch I find someway to burn it and destroy it, intentional or not. I want to stop it, but I don't know how. The verses Ivan Moody sings in this song describe me at my most destructive state, the horrid temperament, self destructive, sharp tongue, corrupt, a jinx/curse on so many aspects of my own life and others...and yet just like he describes there is a side of me that is more than comfortable with it. Part of me regrets nothing because I've still managed to survive. I'm drawn to the destruction and chaos that I can so easily create. I look back at the ashes I've left and while part of me feels the empty sadness of loss, part of me still smiles.
So many of their songs fit me partially, like one verse will completely stand out to me to where the connection between it and my life are like a slap in the face. But Ashes was the top pick as every lyric fits my life as a whole...not just the relationship from hell I found myself thrown out of recently.
Here is the song I entered...
The other one I was tempted to use as an entry was The Bleeding. Even though I link it back to my ex and the song is extremely fitting in that aspect, it does have another meaning. The Bleeding is the reason I love 5FDP. I remember exactly where I was when I first heard them.
It was 2008, I was at my friends Heather and Randall's house, I was still a little torn up from a bad breakup and we were having another poker/vodka night. I was sitting down at the dining room table drinking a Smirnoff Raw Tea (my favorite alcohol ever made and sadly no longer in production). I remember I loved Ivan Moody's voice, and the words seemed like a perfect mixture of anger and sadness. I walked over to the walk-through and slid down the wall into a sitting position on the floor and listened to the rest of the song, drinking my raw tea. I've been hooked ever since.
This is the story I tell people when they ask me why in the hell I'm getting the 5FDP knuckles. Its simple. It is very rare for me to remember the exact moment I heard a song. I remember the exact time when I saw "War Is The Answer" in stores. They are my favorite band and I believe they have more than earned that spot. \
Seeing them live only made it better. They love the knuckleheads. They take the time to meet them and hang out with them. Ivan Moody even walks through the crowd at some shows to meet and greet away from the merch booth. It's rare to even see a meet and greet anymore unless for VIP or won through a contest.
Anyway I have rambled enough. Here is a pic to end the blog. The pic that made my ex beyond insanely jealous.
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