So yes I have a facebook. But due to my friends list there are a few notes/blogs I cant post or there would be a multitude of pissed off and hurt people. I'm not a perfect person, yes, people piss me off immensely, friends included. The latest of which being a stripper friend named Sadie.
My nerves have been worn extremely thin with her anyway considering a few previous stunts shes pulled. But even without that I am pretty upset over last night. It was her first time dancing in Hustler. She made $1000. Let me explain....
Normally I would be thrilled if one of my girls made that at a place like Hustler. But Sadie doesn't want to do it. She doesn't want to be a stripper, I'm not 100% sure if she thinks of it as degrading now or beneath her specifically or what. But the only way she really does it now is at home as a work out or teaching other people to work out. Which is fine...but she changed. She used to be more like me all about being seen on stage, knowing everyone is watching you and in some way wanting you and will pay you even though they know they will never get you. It's fucking empowering as hell...I physically cant dance right now due to a car wreck busting my knee because of not being able to dance I have lowered strength and gaining weight I just don't need to be up there for awhile. Plus with the tech job I currently have I could work 1 day a week maybe 2 tops and it would have to be every week...And I'm craving it. I miss being up there so much, I miss having my body in shape and being able to move perfectly to the songs I love. And yet here is my friend who doesn't even wanna be up there, waking me up at 6am to wave a stack of bills in my face. That's a little shitty to me...and it pissed me off pretty bad. I'm sure it's selfish of me but I can't help it.
So there's my immature post of the month. Enjoy.
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